do you ever get lost in routine? not necessarily your day to day activities but more so in how you feel and respond. though my life has changed exponentially over the past 3 months i still react the same to a few things. my eating habits are fluctuating and i wish i could just slow down and be more mindful. because when i am i eat so much less and so much better. i just need to slow down.
i’ve met an enormous amount of new people and have made great strides in opening up about who i am and not worrying about how others may receive that. i’ve never been one to have the “fuck what they think, i’m gonna be who i am” mentality. but i’ll admit i don’t like to be misunderstood. but how can one control that exactly? all i can do is express myself to the best of my body’s ability. how that’s received is out of my control.
i’m getting better at focusing. i no longer write at a mile a minute. i’m taking my time and i don’t need music. i’m able to read and focus on the book and not a zillion other things bouncing around in my head. when talking to people i’m able to just listen and be slow to respond. i’m no longer in a hurry to agree, disagree, or give my opinion. in fact, i’ve only been giving my opinion when people ask me for it. it’s proven to be a better way of interacting.
going forward i think my focus needs to lie in what i’m currently doing. the moment at hand and what i currently need. when i slow down and just focus on the now, i feel immensely better and more in tune with myself.
taken from my tumblr for errant thoughts hisnarrative
